We are getting closer and closer to our garage sale next month and we are starting to get really excited! We want to give a huge THANK YOU to everyone that has already donated and for those that have scheduled their pick up! We will be accepting donations for a few more weeks, so if you’d like to contribute, just get in touch and we’ll arrange a pick up!
As my wife pointed out in our first Blog we have been through a lot these past few years. Infertility is a topic most men never even think about let alone talk about. However, once you go down that rabbit hole you are in for a hell of a ride. After talking to several friends and work acquaintances I quickly came to the realization that we were not alone in the infertility battle. One thing I have come to understand and even respect is the fact that it is okay to wear your feelings on your sleeve. These past few years have been some of the hardest of my life and hopefully through my writing I will be able to help others in this journey and do a little healing myself in the process.
I was never a man comfortable talking about the female reproductive cycle or even sex with the closest of friends. So as you can imagine how I felt when I found out after our first doctor visit three years ago that my whole comfortable world was about to be flipped upside down. Now I am not saying that nowadays I go around talking about anything and everything having to do with infertility with complete strangers. I am however much more comfortable speaking at length about the whole process. I still get a little red in the face speaking about infertility and some of the intricacies that are involved in the process, but hey Rome wasn’t built in a day right? My first conversation dealing with infertility was about 7-8 years ago with one of my best friends. He and his wife were just beginning the process and engaged in a few conversations on the subject. His openness on the whole subject was a little offsetting at the time and I was a little taken back when it came to his frankness on the matter at hand. (Side note: they were able to conceive a child with the use of Clomid and now have their second child naturally). Fast forward 6 years and countless doctors visits later and I am by no means an open book when it comes to infertility, but I can tell you I am much more comfortable speaking about our situation. What I have figured out is that we (you) are not alone in this process. There has been such a taboo put on Infertility and adoption that most people do not speak openly about the subject. Let’s face it most of our conversations with friends, co-workers, and family members are a lot more casual. One day an idea came to me, when a close friend of mine asked me how I was doing. The normal response would be “living the dream”, however we had just come home from a doctor visit and I needed to talk to someone that wasn’t my wife. So I told my friend that we were going through IVF and that I was stressed out about the money it was costing us. Little did I know that my friend’s sister had gone through infertility as well. My long winded point is that I guarantee that you are not alone in this and at least 1 out 5 of your friends have dealt with this in one way or another.
Do not be afraid to wear your heart on your sleeve when it comes to Infertility. After our first failed IVF cycle, which included a complete quack of a Doctor, the two of us were a little more hurt and betrayed than we were about the failed cycle. I will discuss picking the right doctor in post later and we will leave it at that for now. The second failed cycle was the hardest to deal with. We picked one of the best doctors in Florida and could not have asked for a better experience. However, the outcome was still negative and that was the hardest part. I understand everyone deals with situations in their own way and I was no exception. This time was different I felt as if we had a death in the family. I know this sounds silly or even crazy, but that is how I felt at the time. We had such high hopes the second time around and to find out that it did not take was a complete emotional low in which I had never experienced. I can tell you that this is not an easy undertaking to go through and I do not care who you are or how strong your relationship is their will be days were everything you think you know will be put to the test.
I hope this was helpful to at least one person out there going through the infertility process. I know that just by writing about it and thinking about it from another point of view has already started the healing process for me. I am about to put myself out there (I mean really out there) for the first time in my life and I hope in doing so you will join us for the journey.