Category: Nesting

Expect The Unexpected

 

Hi All!

I had planned on blogging as soon as I got home, but jetlag kicked my butt this time around!!  Plus I basically went right back to work the day after I got home…work + jetlag = one tired girl…lol!  I think and hope that I’m finally caught up!

So, you’re all probably wondering how everything turned out, right? We had our “official” blood results back on Friday, but needed a day or two for it to all sink in.  I have to admit, the time from transfer to blood test feels like an ETERNITY and during that time I become a pee on a stick addict. I should seriously buy stock in First Response. I tell myself every time that I’m not going to obsess over testing and that I will stay away from Google…I once again failed…lol…it’s so freaking hard!! I started testing at 4dp5dt (four day past a five day transfer) as that’s when we got our positive last time around (I know it was super early, but it was twins so it showed positive).  I tested every day, at least twice a day (I told you I have a problem) and was getting negatives each time.  But, we still had hope.  A lot of women don’t get positives until closer to 8 or 9 days past their transfers and some even later if only pregnant with a singleton.  I had my beta (blood pregnancy test) at 9dp5dt.  The Dr called shortly after 9am while I was at work the next morning. “Hi Michelle, this is Dr. Salter and I have the results to your blood test”.  My heart was racing; I took a deep breath in.  “I’m sorry to say, you’re not pregnant.” I didn’t really hear anything else she said after that. My heart sunk.  I kind of knew that I wasn’t going to get a positive based on our at home results, but I really had hope that just maybe the blood test would come out positive. Actually hearing the words come out of my Dr’s mouth made it official and that sucked.  Getting the news at work really sucked.  All I wanted to do was to crawl into my bed, under my covers and cry. Instead, I went into the bathroom for a quick cry, and then somehow pulled it together for the rest of the day and did my best to act like it was any other Friday.  Life goes on, right?

This isn’t our first rodeo, so we’re used to the whole failed cycle scenario, but it doesn’t make it any easier when it happens.  You experience this horrible feeling of loss, the loss of something you never physically had, but it still hurts the same.  It worked for us last time, so we expected it to work this time (although we know you should NEVER expect anything when it comes to infertility treatments). Plus for me, since it’s my body I can’t help but to feel like it’s somehow my fault.  Deep down I KNOW it’s not my fault, but it’s a feeling that’s hard to shake. So we are on our way to healing.  Are we okay today? Truthfully? No.  Will we be okay?  Yes…in time.

We KNOW this process works!  It’s worked for us before. We don’t know why it didn’t work this time. My lining looked perfect, the embryos looked perfect (looked being the key word since we didn’t have them genetically tested), but for whatever reason they never attached. So, the big question….are we going to do it again?  I’m going to let my body recover (pumping it full of drugs to make it think it’s pregnant, then suddenly stopping makes my body hate me!) and then we’ve decided that we are going to try again in December or January (recruiting for a travel partner has officially started…you know you want to go!).

I received a lot of questions while I was away about the process and my trip.  In the upcoming weeks I’ll try to cover everything in detail so I can get all of your questions answered and if anyone has any other questions, please don’t hesitate to ask!

Thank you to everyone for your prayers and positive thoughts.  Although we didn’t get the outcome we were hoping for, knowing that you were all rooting for us and have our backs makes this grieving process a little easier.

Xoxo – Michelle & Bill

 

Etsy Shop is FINALLY Open!

Good Morning All!

I don’t know about all of you, but I get horrible insomnia around a full moon – the upside?  I FINALLY finished our Etsy shop!  I’m still working on building out the “shop” side to our blog for the cupcakes, but one shop at a time, right? 🙂  For now, our Etsy shop sells wish bracelets (we hope to add more).  We decided to do wish bracelets because OUR wish is to have a baby, so we thought we would try to make your wishes come true too!

The shop is bare bones right now, so excuse the “mess” lol. I got it up and running real quick after reading an article from salesforce on the important to these creative marketplaces. All proceeds go directly to our adoption fund and once we reach our goal, we will keep the shop open and donate a percentage of the proceeds to another family on their adoption journey!
If you are interested in purchasing the bracelets in bulk for your own fundraising purposes, please get in touch for bulk pricing.
xoxo – Michelle

Gimme S’more

Hey All!

I have three words for you – Oh. Em. Geee!!  Our Gimme S’more cupcake is currently our featured cupcake. This little beauty has a graham cracker crust, topped with a moist chocolate cake, topped with creamy marshmallow frosting and a little chocolate square.  Pretty much like heaven in a jar!  If s’mores aren’t you thing, don’t worry – we can do almost any cake/frosting combo for you, along with a custom label, ribbon and little bamboo spoon.  $3 each or $30 for a dozen (min purchase ½ dozen).  Did I mention that we deliver locally?  All proceeds go directly to our adoption fund.  After we meet our goal, we will continue to keep the shop open and donate 5% of our proceeds to a family going through their adoption journey!

Gimme S'more

We also have our Facebook page up and running (just barely!).  If you get a chance stop by and give us a like – www.facebook.com/HopeStrengthAndWine 

We are still working on the shop portion of our site – I PROMISE it will be up soon!

xoxo – Michelle

 

Cupcakes in a Jar

Hey all!

So I’m super jazzed up (yes, I went there) about our cupcakes in a jar!  We’ve been so blessed that we can use the proceeds from these cupcakes to go towards our adoption costs!  It’s really a win-win.  You get an adorable yet delicious portable cupcake and we are one step closer to our fundraising goal!  Check out the cute cakes we made today!  You’re hungry now, aren’t you?  That’s okay – just get in touch and you can have your very own yummy snacks!Cupcake in a Jar

The Universe Works in Mysterious Ways!

Hi All!

We had our second fundraising sale yesterday at the St Pete Beach Rec center. We want to thank EVERYONE that came out to stopped by to see us! It was also awesome to meet so many new people and hear their adoption journeys. The kindness of strangers makes our hearts so happy! I know we say this all the time, but we really can’t do this without you all, so thank you, thank you, thank you!

Back to the sale…It was a community sale, so we REALLY had our hopes set high as far as traffic at the sale.  Unfortunately, Mother Nature had other plans…it rained pretty much the whole time!  Our sales weren’t quite where we wanted them to be and we didn’t hit our fundraising goal, but hey, we did make some money, so that’s a good day in our books 🙂  Here’s where the Universe(God)stepped in…although we didn’t have a lot of traffic, almost everyone that stopped in loved our baked goods, especially our cupcakes in a jar. We brought them as more of an add on item, not thinking that they would be such a huge hit!

 

cupcakesSeriously though, whats not to love about them, they’re so stinking adorable and delicious to boot! We ended up with multiple orders before the day was done and after posting them online, we ended up with more and more orders through the night! We went from feeling like the day had been a bust, to feeling so blessed and overjoyed. Someone is definitely watching out for us!

We’ve been making the cupcakes for years for friends and family and now we can make them for you too!  Our online shop will be open this week, but if you want to place an order before then, just reach out to me on Facebook or on our contact page here.

Thank you all for your love and support!

xoxo – Michelle & Bill

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